Take back...

We cannot be honest. Ever. There is no place for honesty and sincerity. Why people ask questions if they cannot handle the answers? And why the double standards? What's up with that?
I'm so mad and frustrated. I'm mad at myself, how stupid I am. I should keep my mouth shut and my life to myself at all times.
Tears come to my eyes as I write this... I wish I could go back in time... and do it again.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

How everything can change in a minute II

you have no idea HOW MUCH. I didn't either.

Truth is, I can't really talk about it at this point. All I can say is that I've been expecting a positive answer since I heard about the possibility last Wednesday. It might come today... I'm only mentioning it because I'm so nervous and excited. Ok, ok, all I ask is that you think positively for me. Soon I'll tell you what it is all about, whether it happens or not.

What a mysterious post, huh?

Thursday, March 4, 2010

How everything can change in a minute

I'm free...

I finally handed over my final paper after a long battle with myself. It's over. I'm graduated. This is my second graduation. I knew I would feel so lost after it. I have no idea how to move forward. I know what I want in life. But it's very hard for me to be honest about it as I know it's a crazy dream. There are other problems, of course. I have to think about money and this can make my dreams move further and further away. But I shouldn't give up, I don't think I should. I just feel so lost.

But something very nice happened since the last post. I finally met someone special. And believe me, he's something else. I never thought I could meet such a man, but I did. I'm at the moon right now, I think I haven't been in love in a very long time. Such a long time that I had forgotten how it felt like.

So I'm basicall lost and found at the same time. What a great year this will be.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010