Chrono Trigger and the Weird Weather

Just a few days ago I restarted playing my dear Chrono Trigger for Snes. I just heard there will be a release for Nintendo DS. I can't wait, hope I'll have money for it. Chrono Trigger just makes me happy.

I think the first time I played it I was around 13 and it has been one of my favorite games ever since. I've been really down these past days, I caught a cold and I have far too many papers to write for school. The weather is scaring me around here. It's almost December and it's cold. Some of you might not get it, but it's almost summer here. Or at least it should be. I love cold weather, but when it's supposed to be cold! Hope the Apocalypse will take longer. I haven't finished Chrono Trigger for the 10th time yet! ^^

Will I survive those papers?

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Feeling blessed

I was going to post about things that have been annoying me lately. I even wrote it down on a piece of paper, as I had no computer near me, so I could publish it here later.

But I won't do that today.

I'm so happy today. I felt like I was blessed somehow. And instead of a post full of rage (lol, ok, not really rage. Let's say "potentially negative") I decided to share with you my experience.

As I wrote last post, I had an accident. It wasn't really serious, but it surely could have been. I felt so stupid for hurting myself like that, for being careless. Accidents happen, I know. Still, it was hard. The doctor said that just a few inches and I would have lost the eyesight on my right eye. I would also have lost it in case I had not rushed to the hospital like I did. Nevertheless, I was so so grateful. I felt pain, headaches, felt stupid, ugly, sad. But so grateful that I could see. I pray everyday and since the accident I've been thanking so much for being so lucky. But that was not really the part I wanted to share.

Today my grandma went with me back to the hospital to remove the stitches. I was very nervous and I knew I would find very unpleasant when they removed the stitches. As I left the room with my grandma I felt so different. I realized how much the stitches were bothering me, how much it actually did hurt and I felt the immense relief. And at that moment I noticed how we take things for granted. We think we will always be healthy, that everything will always be there for us. Just the simple act of seeing is such a blessing. I felt so blessed, so lucky that nothing really happened. That I could still see perfectly, that I could just close my eyes without feeling uncomfortable. Just blinking normally... I never realized how wonderful it is. I sobbed at this realization. I know it may sound corny, but that’s really how I felt. ^_^

I was also amazed in how the eye is healing by itself so quickly. It got hurt, it was cut, and now it heals. What a wonderful and amazing thing the human body is!

God, thank you so much for this experience. Thank you for making me appreciate these things.
I’m very happy today. Really happy. ^_^

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Thursday, November 20, 2008

What to start writing about... and the tale of the hurting eye O_x

At first I felt like I should start this blog by telling a little about myself and my life story. Afterwards, I felt this would be very difficult to do without becoming either too long or too boring. I think I'll end up giving anyone at least a glance about myself as the blog goes on. I don't know. If I feel it is getting too confusing I might try to write about my life.

In fact, I would love to start writing about the things that bother me so much, the ones I told you in the first post I really needed to talk about in order to both feel better and organize my thoughts. I think my thoughts lack organization and this feature affects a deeper reflection about my thinking. Ok, I started sounding confusing. See? I need organization! =D

I also want to write about silly things. About things I like, enjoy doing...
But where do I start? I think I should just start. But there's so much to say, I'm confused. I could make a list of the things that have been bothering me the most lately. And I'll do it. But first, let me tell you about my right eye.

Yes, my right eye. Yesterday, trying to fix something around the house before leaving for school, I had a little accident. The screwdriver's handle ended up hurting my right eye. It was hurting a lot and soon I saw the blood. My first reaction was to try finding a hospital with an ophthalmological emergency that would accept my health insurance. As soon as I found one, I withdrew some money from the ATM, got a taxi and off I went. There, the doctor told me I would have to go through surgery and get some stitches. Stitches inside my eye. I almost fainted. I didn't even know that existed!
I was alone, so I called my stepdaddy. My mom would have had a heart attack, so I called him first. He came to meet me and soon I was going to surgery. No real anesthesia. I could see it all. I mean, there was no pain involved, but it was very uncomfortable. And the area I hate the most to touch is the eye. It wasn't a nice feeling.
Anyways, I went home looking like a pirate. Today I went to hospital again, this time with my mom. They removed the bandage and now I look like a B Horror Movie. My mom looked and got so scared. When I went to the mirror to see I almost cried. I know it will not look like this for long, and my vision is perfect again, thank God. But it's very scary. Really scary...
Next week I'll go back there to remove the stitches. My vision is fine, but it's still so uncomfortable, I can actually feel the stitches... I'm sad, to be honest. I thank God, however, that I'm fine and that I can see perfectly.

Ok, take care you all. I'll write again sooner than I did =D

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Thursday, November 13, 2008